A SIDE OF CAPERS.
You can keep up with me if you want, I'm not running too fast.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
New Blog! (-ish)
The writing will be less personal and more op-ed style: reflections, analysis, ideas about the Universe we live in. Right now there's a certain kind of tone set by the posts that are up there, which is somewhat indicative of the nature of the project.
The new blog can be found at laurajdt.blogspot.com
If you like it, follow it! If you don't like it, thanks for giving it a brief chance! And maybe revisit it again in a month or so to see its progress (maybe you'll like it later?).
Love to all.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Inside My Skin
I know how to reverse this, I know how to take care of myself, I know what I need to be eating and how I need to be moving in order to see a positive change in my shape. But I am having the hardest time being consistently kind to myself and being a cheerleader for my own team. In some aspects of life, I am doing a great job at self-love and self-support. In other aspects....I am letting myself down.
For me, this sort of behavior (whether it's overeating, or procrastinating, or letting my house get totally messy & sorta gross, etc) is self-destructive. When I am not taking care of myself--my whole self (mind, body, work, art, spirit) it manifests itself in behavior that at first seems simply indulgent ("ok, I will have some ice cream"...."nah, the dishes can wait til tomorrow"....."I don't need to start that research right now") but then quickly snowballs into self-destructive repetition. I make a good show of being a functioning adult when out "in the real world," but when in self-destruction mode, that good show really is just that: a show. The Laura Is A Functioning Adult show is actually helpful, though, because it grounds me and reminds me that I will pull out of the self-destructive behavior, that I am capable of accomplishing things, and that not all is lost.
Friday, December 16, 2011
The End of Another Term...
Technically I've still got to write two one page (500+ words) journal entries for my "History and Research Methods of Rhetoric and Composition" course, but other than that (which will only take a couple hours), I am DONE with my 2nd semester of graduate work.
Strange...to not have "homework" for a whole month...other than memorizing/rehearsing my pieces for my grad school audition.
I am so blessed, because I know that I will be able to have several eyes on my monologues before going to U/RTA's. I will have several people who know me and my work in very different capacities, and so their biases will be so different, that I really will have a lot to work with in terms of feedback as I shape and polish these.
I WANT TO GET INTO DEPAUL OR NYU.
Honestly, I want to get in somewhere, period. I'm terrified that no one will want to offer a place to me.
It isn't unlikely, you know. The possibility of failing to secure a Fall 2012 acceptance is actually just as possible, and more so than me actually getting in somewhere.
Oh wow....if I could get in to NYC, then Dave and I would be living in the city where I formed my Self...with all the amazing people who helped me to do so: Courtney, John, Clark, Katherine, Kevin, Evan, Mike, Omar, Alexis, Peter, Danielle, Amanda, Janis, Dave (Auster), Wendy & Jeff, KYLE & BCF, all the 101ers...the folks who did Five Seconds to Air with Evan and I....the Dows, Carmel/Donny & their kids....TIFFANY AND BRET...Chris, Andrew....oh man....the list goes on. But Dave and I would be there, in that magical city....
OR
If we were in CHICAGO....THE "I will" city....with Dave's family, and our friends, and the amazing Steppenwolves who have come before (Colin, Jonny, Man, Christine, Leana, Brentan....et. al)....and the amazing potential of that town and its signature theatres--The Goodman, Steppenwolf, etc.--I would absoultely love to be in that space....
Welll. That's where my mind is. Now to go over to my mother's. Be sure--I will tell her this.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Dear Media: Have I Got A Story For You!
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This morning, at midnight, the online "launch" for a new poetry anthology occurred. That anthology is entitled: "More Than Soil, More Than Sky: The Modesto Poets." Edited by Sam Pierstorff, Gillian Wegener, Stella Beratlis, and Ed Bearden, this anthology has SKYROCKETED to become the #1 Amazon Poetry Best-Seller*, the #2 Amazon Mover & Shaker**, and is in the top 100 Amazon Best-Sellers*** all in under 18 hours since its launch.
Friday, October 21, 2011
You guys are so awesome!
Friday, October 14, 2011
Yell Talkers.
I don't understand yell talking. I just don't. How many people are you talking to, exactly? Just those two folks sitting next to you, right? Right. So why the fuck are you essentially yelling everything you say? WE CAN ALL HEAR YOU AS THOUGH YOU WERE SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO US. SHUT UP.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
“Existence is a series of footnotes to a vast, obscure, unfinished masterpiece.” — Vladimir Nabokov
Sunday, October 9, 2011
On This Day In 2006
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OCTOBER 9th, 2006
The definition of "Depress," as it reads in the American Heritage Dictionary:
de·press (d-prs) tr.v. de·pressed, de·press·ing, de·press·es
1. To lower in spirits; deject.
2. i. To cause to drop or sink; lower: The drought depressed the water level in the reservoirs. ii. To press down: Depress the space bar on a typewriter.
3. To lessen the activity or force of; weaken: feared that rising inflation would further depress the economy.
4. To lower prices in (a financial market).
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When I am depressed, it feels like I am being "pressed down," like an unseen force is pressing down upon me, sapping me of strength and causing me to be unable to rise up--to not be "pressed down." I am far more antisocial and much less talkative and more irritable during these times, because I can only ultimately name the source of the depression as being within, and then I feel MORE helpless because I do not know how to fight myself.
Thankfully, Andrew and I had a nice long talk about this on Sunday---which began as me thinking I might break up with him and ended with us still being together---that helped me snap some things into perspective. A little tough love does me good. Not to mention (and this isn't inspired by any suggestions of Andrew's, this is actually something I worked out on my own) that maybe it's time to get a little psychotherapy and perhaps look into a mild anti-depressant/anxiety reliever.
Welcome to New York?